The end of day 2 and all the way through day 3, I had become so completely sick from the detoxing, it was not funny at all. My eyes had sunk in, my movements were slow and weak, the headache returned, I began having the shakes and nausua. But then, stuff from my stomach started to come up and I couldn't work. My client was concerned, ofc. As she should have been, but I assured her that I was sick, but it was not contagious.
(Fasting should really always be done for yourself and there is no need for anyone else to know.)
But, because of the situation, my soulmate also grew concerned. After work, he went by and bought loads of vegetables to put into a salad and begged me to eat. And, I did. The end of day 3, I broke my fast with a salad and some yellow corn. I can't let him worry, really and I was truely quite sick from all of the toxins.
And he said that three days on an all water fast was quite impressive and a nice starter to future fastings. The reason why I hadn't posted before now was not because I was ashamed (as that has been the reason for me in the pasts), but because I was weak.
The day after the fast break, my energy levels were absolutely through the roof! I woke up smiling and don't believe I stopped smiling throughout the entire day. I could sense and feel the fast did have quite a wonderful effect on me, even though I was incredibly sick just the day before.
I especially felt 'clean' and fresher in my face area and all around my head. I am not sure what that means, but it was a very nice experience.
That day (would have been day 4 of the fast) was also my first day back into yoga class! That was also awesome! During the class, we were told to meditate on a dream that we want to (and with some effort) acquire. I focused on having a healthy and beautiful body. After a few minutes of meditation and focusing on this 'dream', suddenly something inside of me said 'Do not drink anymore wine.'
I was so shocked that that was said. I didn't say it, I wasn't even thinking about wine. But it is true, I drink, at least, two bottles of wine a day in the weekends. So 3-4 bottles from Friday evening to Sunday. I have wanted to give up alcohol for quite a while, but my inner addict forces me back to it.
And, last night was friday, and there was a bottle of wine left over from last weekend sitting in the kitchen. My inner addict won again and I drank it. While in the course of drinking this cursed drink, my guilt was non-existant and my mind was not focusing on what I had just done.
I had just betrayed my body of what it had, just the day before, asked of me. To stop drinking it.
And, after going to bed, my body got revenge through one nightmare after another. First, me trying desparately to saved an old man from drowning. He was coughing so hard, his ribs were breaking beneath my arms (as I was holding him). Than I dreamt that me and a group of others my age were taken to the woods to camp and there was a daschund with as. A sweet little tan female. One girl tapped my shoulder and said 'watch this.' And she used her mind to ask the dog to bite the overbearing guide that was with us (none of us liked him because he was so mean.). Reluctantly, the little dog nipped as his finger then began licking it as if to say she were sorry.
THen the guide picked up the dog and pointed a handgun to the dogs head screaming 'I'm going to kill her!"
I screamed out no, grabbed the gun and pointed it at him, demanding he let the dog free. He did, then charged me and I shot him in the shoulder/arm....but the bullet hit the artery. But that didn't matter, he was still coming after me, over took me and took the gun and pointed it at my head.
After that, I woke up, layed in bed....and finally got up to do some morning yoga. Swearing, from this day onward that I will not betray my body with such a simple requests again.
No more drinking, it only hurts me. I have to replace my inner addicts wants with something else. I am hoping that the replacement will be yoga.
So I did 3 days of water fasting and, so far, 3 days of daily yoga. I recall that I never put a limit to how many days I was going to give myself on the water fasting, so I didn't fail....nor did I succeed in cleansing. But its a start.
I do plan on fasting again. Next fast will be a juice fast....and I will plan another water fast in the future. Preferably during vacation times =b.
I will continue to post on my blog though! Yoga will be a daily thing for me now (or at least I hope it to be), as well as listening to my body and feeding it what it really wants.
Saturday, 31 October 2009
Tuesday, 27 October 2009
Water Fast - Day 2
What a day!
I woke up extremely happy. I don't know why, but just that whole 'blahish' feeling has just dissapated. I don't know why. I've just gone through the entire day with a smile on my face. It's quite awesome.
I have also quite a few things to report. Or seems like it, anyway.
First thing I did was get on the scales this morning. I have scales that tell you your total body water, fat percentage, muscle percentage, and bone density. I've pretty much lost 1.4 kilos between yesterday and today. But thats not the part I am truely excited about. This morning, my bone density was 2.7 (Average female is 2.9). My bones have always had issues as I was born with weak bones. But all morning, they were popping and cracking and snapping with every move that i make. I even emailed Robbie (my soulmate) and told him of all the racket my joints were making and that it was alarming. But I knew that water fasting was for healing, not harming.
A time later (lets say 4-5 hours) I went to go take my shower. I was sluggish today, so that is why I waited so long. After the shower, I stepped back onto my scales, just because I was curious at anything that may have changed. My water level dropped 3 points, even though I was drinking more water. But my bone density went up by 0.1! So now its at 2.8 and my joints have stopped popping. I can't help but see how the cracking and popping of my bones relates to the slight increase in my bone density! I'm quite excited about that change :).
Cravings today have been mad awful though. I'm thinking of foods I wouldn't even touch. Cream puffs, pizza, peanut butter banana sandwiches, etc. It's quite frustrating, it really is.
But I'm strong! I'm pulling through.
I've taken in about 1.25 liters of water today. I want to get two in before the end of the day, but I'm not sure if thats gonna happen. Even though I'm constantly sipping and my mouth gets dry really fast.
I also want to note that my headaches are already gone. I have had one dizzy spell today, and slight shakes only once. I think those two instances was right before my body started kicking in on fat reserves. Ever since then, the cravings for fattening foods kicked in, so I believe these instances are related.
I am also constantly cold. I've cranked my heater up to 22 degrees celsius. Thats summer weather, yet I'm still very cold.
AND, I know I said I wouldn't, but I did some oil pulling this morning. Besides my mouth getting tired from 20 minutes of swishing, I have nothing really to report =b. But oil pulling is one of those things where results just dont show up over night. I feel my body is strong enough to take whatever oil pulling might do, so I did it. The oil got all squishy in my mouth and when i spat it out, it was all milky brown in color. Weird, but it's something I will continue to do throughout this fast, and probaly more in the future as well.
I've also had 4 cups of herbal tea today, along with my water. I'm starving though! But the hunger disappears once your body realizes that its gotta use up the fat storage.
Anyway, Day 2, success! :)
Now lets see how I do on the third day ^_^.
I woke up extremely happy. I don't know why, but just that whole 'blahish' feeling has just dissapated. I don't know why. I've just gone through the entire day with a smile on my face. It's quite awesome.
I have also quite a few things to report. Or seems like it, anyway.
First thing I did was get on the scales this morning. I have scales that tell you your total body water, fat percentage, muscle percentage, and bone density. I've pretty much lost 1.4 kilos between yesterday and today. But thats not the part I am truely excited about. This morning, my bone density was 2.7 (Average female is 2.9). My bones have always had issues as I was born with weak bones. But all morning, they were popping and cracking and snapping with every move that i make. I even emailed Robbie (my soulmate) and told him of all the racket my joints were making and that it was alarming. But I knew that water fasting was for healing, not harming.
A time later (lets say 4-5 hours) I went to go take my shower. I was sluggish today, so that is why I waited so long. After the shower, I stepped back onto my scales, just because I was curious at anything that may have changed. My water level dropped 3 points, even though I was drinking more water. But my bone density went up by 0.1! So now its at 2.8 and my joints have stopped popping. I can't help but see how the cracking and popping of my bones relates to the slight increase in my bone density! I'm quite excited about that change :).
Cravings today have been mad awful though. I'm thinking of foods I wouldn't even touch. Cream puffs, pizza, peanut butter banana sandwiches, etc. It's quite frustrating, it really is.
But I'm strong! I'm pulling through.
I've taken in about 1.25 liters of water today. I want to get two in before the end of the day, but I'm not sure if thats gonna happen. Even though I'm constantly sipping and my mouth gets dry really fast.
I also want to note that my headaches are already gone. I have had one dizzy spell today, and slight shakes only once. I think those two instances was right before my body started kicking in on fat reserves. Ever since then, the cravings for fattening foods kicked in, so I believe these instances are related.
I am also constantly cold. I've cranked my heater up to 22 degrees celsius. Thats summer weather, yet I'm still very cold.
AND, I know I said I wouldn't, but I did some oil pulling this morning. Besides my mouth getting tired from 20 minutes of swishing, I have nothing really to report =b. But oil pulling is one of those things where results just dont show up over night. I feel my body is strong enough to take whatever oil pulling might do, so I did it. The oil got all squishy in my mouth and when i spat it out, it was all milky brown in color. Weird, but it's something I will continue to do throughout this fast, and probaly more in the future as well.
I've also had 4 cups of herbal tea today, along with my water. I'm starving though! But the hunger disappears once your body realizes that its gotta use up the fat storage.
Anyway, Day 2, success! :)
Now lets see how I do on the third day ^_^.
Monday, 26 October 2009
Water Fast - Day 1
Day 1 has been a somewhat easy day. I thought it would be the most difficult, work-wise, but I got through it perfectly. I have, so far, only craved something to actually chew once....but quickly pushed the craving aside. Of course, as the days pass, this craving may grow stronger, but I am sure I can overcome that....and eventually...the cravings to eat will fade. So I am looking forward to reaching the other side, so to speak.
My energy has been normal on up until now. I worked six hours and now I am really tired, but otherwise, was fine. My neck hurts some though. And on the way home from work, my legs were burning pretty good on my bike. That usually doesn't happen. I'm not sure, but I suspect I am at that stage where my body is reaching for my muscles for energy. By tomorrow or day 3, though, it will start working on the fat reserves, which is where most of the toxins are stored.
I have taken in 3 cups of herbal tea today and have sipped on mineral water the entire day. I am confused as to whether I am actually allowed herbal tea in a water fast, but my body is enjoying it so far. I have read mixed reports on drinking herbal tea in a water fast, but, at this moment, I don't see any reason why I can't have it. Green tea, and such, are full of anti-oxidents that will help the body heal. But we will see how my body reacts to it soon enough.
As far as oil pulling, I haven't begun that yet. I want to see how strong the effects are of the first healing process, and once the worst is over, I will probably begin teh oil pulling then. We'll see. At this moment, though, I feel my body is saying 'no way, not yet'. So I will listen.
Also, I want to record a very strange sensation I had earlier. My lips. They are bone dry to the touch, yet, they feel moist. I have no way to explain that. Maybe thats just my mind playing tricks on me, haha.
Anyway, so far so good. Day 1, no cheats! So thats an acheivement. I'll take it day by day.
My energy has been normal on up until now. I worked six hours and now I am really tired, but otherwise, was fine. My neck hurts some though. And on the way home from work, my legs were burning pretty good on my bike. That usually doesn't happen. I'm not sure, but I suspect I am at that stage where my body is reaching for my muscles for energy. By tomorrow or day 3, though, it will start working on the fat reserves, which is where most of the toxins are stored.
I have taken in 3 cups of herbal tea today and have sipped on mineral water the entire day. I am confused as to whether I am actually allowed herbal tea in a water fast, but my body is enjoying it so far. I have read mixed reports on drinking herbal tea in a water fast, but, at this moment, I don't see any reason why I can't have it. Green tea, and such, are full of anti-oxidents that will help the body heal. But we will see how my body reacts to it soon enough.
As far as oil pulling, I haven't begun that yet. I want to see how strong the effects are of the first healing process, and once the worst is over, I will probably begin teh oil pulling then. We'll see. At this moment, though, I feel my body is saying 'no way, not yet'. So I will listen.
Also, I want to record a very strange sensation I had earlier. My lips. They are bone dry to the touch, yet, they feel moist. I have no way to explain that. Maybe thats just my mind playing tricks on me, haha.
Anyway, so far so good. Day 1, no cheats! So thats an acheivement. I'll take it day by day.
Sunday, 25 October 2009
Day Before Fasting Begins
My reasonings for fasting and my goals.
1) To test myself. Even now, I suffer from food addictions and I am weak to those addictions. Unless I take myself seriously and open my mind to how strong my spirit really is, I will never succeed and break my addictions.
2) For spirituality. I am lost, as many people are. But I want to find myself. I plan to do this through testing my strength with fasting and meditation/yoga. Also, to search for the buddha that is in me.
3) I am still sick. Not sick as in flu sick, but something inside me is just not right. If I clear out all of the toxins and get all of the old stuff out for good, then I can begin again and build a more perfected lifestyle of health.
4) For inner pride. If I succeed in a true detox, I can be proud of something that I have accomplished. But this is not the most important reason, it is mainly just reaching my goals to give my spirit an inner smile. I want to be spiritually stronger. And in my arrogance, I have been watching people who, I thought, were weaker than I, succeed. Karma has forced me to take a good hard look in the mirror. And I am ashamed that I could have been so arrogant and have really nothing I can be proud of through this journey of health. I still have toxins in my body and I am still sick.
5) To use yoga and meditation more and more in my daily life. The health benefits are boundless in these practices. Not only that, but longevity has been a known benefit to yoga and meditation. I am lost, but I still love life and want to get the most out of it for as long as I can.
6) To learn more about myself. Through all of the previous statements, I will learn more about myself and can move further on with my life and acheivements.
I have already accomplished more than I could ever have believed. From my past accomplishements, I never really believed in myself and perhaps that is what is holding me back from my final push to my goal weight. But this is not all about weight and reaching it. This is more for my weakened and bored spirit.
Today will be a day of preparation as I do not want to jump into a fast where my mind is prepared but my body is not. I have eaten light yesterday, and shall do the same today. Mostly fruits and vegetables, though I will have a little croissant for breakfast. It's non-raw, but its a tradition my soulmate and I have on sundays. But this will be my last croissant ever as, after the fast, I will be on a complete buddha/yoga lifestyle. And that includes an all vegan (mostly raw vegan) diet.
And, as one buddha has said (And I've posted this before, but it is such a beautiful quote): "If you have eaten yourself sick, fast until you are well."
It could not have been better said.
Tomorrow will be day 1 of my water fast. I have to work six hours so I am curious how that will go. Otherwise, this is a very light work week for me, so a perfect time to start. Tomorrow is my longest day. As promised, tomorrow I will post information on oil pulling and how I will go about doing that.
1) To test myself. Even now, I suffer from food addictions and I am weak to those addictions. Unless I take myself seriously and open my mind to how strong my spirit really is, I will never succeed and break my addictions.
2) For spirituality. I am lost, as many people are. But I want to find myself. I plan to do this through testing my strength with fasting and meditation/yoga. Also, to search for the buddha that is in me.
3) I am still sick. Not sick as in flu sick, but something inside me is just not right. If I clear out all of the toxins and get all of the old stuff out for good, then I can begin again and build a more perfected lifestyle of health.
4) For inner pride. If I succeed in a true detox, I can be proud of something that I have accomplished. But this is not the most important reason, it is mainly just reaching my goals to give my spirit an inner smile. I want to be spiritually stronger. And in my arrogance, I have been watching people who, I thought, were weaker than I, succeed. Karma has forced me to take a good hard look in the mirror. And I am ashamed that I could have been so arrogant and have really nothing I can be proud of through this journey of health. I still have toxins in my body and I am still sick.
5) To use yoga and meditation more and more in my daily life. The health benefits are boundless in these practices. Not only that, but longevity has been a known benefit to yoga and meditation. I am lost, but I still love life and want to get the most out of it for as long as I can.
6) To learn more about myself. Through all of the previous statements, I will learn more about myself and can move further on with my life and acheivements.
I have already accomplished more than I could ever have believed. From my past accomplishements, I never really believed in myself and perhaps that is what is holding me back from my final push to my goal weight. But this is not all about weight and reaching it. This is more for my weakened and bored spirit.
Today will be a day of preparation as I do not want to jump into a fast where my mind is prepared but my body is not. I have eaten light yesterday, and shall do the same today. Mostly fruits and vegetables, though I will have a little croissant for breakfast. It's non-raw, but its a tradition my soulmate and I have on sundays. But this will be my last croissant ever as, after the fast, I will be on a complete buddha/yoga lifestyle. And that includes an all vegan (mostly raw vegan) diet.
And, as one buddha has said (And I've posted this before, but it is such a beautiful quote): "If you have eaten yourself sick, fast until you are well."
It could not have been better said.
Tomorrow will be day 1 of my water fast. I have to work six hours so I am curious how that will go. Otherwise, this is a very light work week for me, so a perfect time to start. Tomorrow is my longest day. As promised, tomorrow I will post information on oil pulling and how I will go about doing that.
Saturday, 24 October 2009
Water Fasting
Yup, thats right. In the upcoming days, I will be beginning a water fast. I was just lead on this path randomly. I've never really wanted to do such an extreme fast before, but suddenly, my mind and body just called for it.
The idea for going along with another sort of 'feasting' was started with Colleen. An online friend of mine who is on a raw vegan journey. But she will be beginning a juice feasting. I knew I wanted to start a feast, but initially thought i would be going through the usual green and fruit juicing line.
I don't know how to explain it, but I just know my body is saying that it wants water and only water....at least for a while.
I don't know how long I will be on the water fast. I believe that I will just continue it until I am no longer feeling so down and bored. This is a perfect time to start again with yoga as my mind will be constantly wandering back to food.
Water fasting is the hardest type of fasting there is. Your mind must be completely focused on the ideals in which you are heading on. I need another test of strength for my mind and my body. I won't continue to do the fast if it becomes dangerous. But the water fast has been know to last from just a few days on up until 40 days. I do still have quite a bit of toxins in my body.
In addition to this water fast, I will also be trying out oil pulling. I will post more information on this in another blog, but for now, I just wanted to make a record of my new challenge to myself.
My fast will begin on Monday as I need a couple of days to prepare for it. Eating lighter and meditating and such. I also need to do a bit more reasearch on oil pulling just to better inform myself and others out there who just may read my blogs :).
As the water fast progresses, I will try to make a blog everyday. This will also help me focus as my mind and body adjusts to all of the new things that will be going on.
Now all I need is to find that inner strength that is in me somewhere :).
Namaste <3
The idea for going along with another sort of 'feasting' was started with Colleen. An online friend of mine who is on a raw vegan journey. But she will be beginning a juice feasting. I knew I wanted to start a feast, but initially thought i would be going through the usual green and fruit juicing line.
I don't know how to explain it, but I just know my body is saying that it wants water and only water....at least for a while.
I don't know how long I will be on the water fast. I believe that I will just continue it until I am no longer feeling so down and bored. This is a perfect time to start again with yoga as my mind will be constantly wandering back to food.
Water fasting is the hardest type of fasting there is. Your mind must be completely focused on the ideals in which you are heading on. I need another test of strength for my mind and my body. I won't continue to do the fast if it becomes dangerous. But the water fast has been know to last from just a few days on up until 40 days. I do still have quite a bit of toxins in my body.
In addition to this water fast, I will also be trying out oil pulling. I will post more information on this in another blog, but for now, I just wanted to make a record of my new challenge to myself.
My fast will begin on Monday as I need a couple of days to prepare for it. Eating lighter and meditating and such. I also need to do a bit more reasearch on oil pulling just to better inform myself and others out there who just may read my blogs :).
As the water fast progresses, I will try to make a blog everyday. This will also help me focus as my mind and body adjusts to all of the new things that will be going on.
Now all I need is to find that inner strength that is in me somewhere :).
Namaste <3
Thursday, 22 October 2009
Yoga
I have been missing something in my life and I just realized, its my yoga lessons. I stopped with yoga lessons last year, ironically, around this time. I have been feeling very idle and just right out bored lately, and my mind is craving knew knowledge and to continue exploring. I have found myself just staring at the computer screen while playing puzzle games. But its not what my mind needs, its not what my body needs, and its not what my spirit needs. Not only that, I have actually taken time out to learn how to knit. TO KNIT! I feel like a grandma, yet I'm only 30 years old =b. I am currently making a cat blanket for my kitties =b. How silly is that.
Anyway, to continue, I am currently in the process of contacting my yoga teacher and keeping my fingers crossed that she still has a space for me =S. I have continued my mostly raw lifestyle. That hasn't changed, nor will it change. But because my issues in my mind are still not settled, my body suffers the same. I thought about returning to kickboxing. But, as usual, my wonderful soulmate pokes me and says "You loved yoga, why not go back?"
He's so wonderful....how could i have left yoga behind?
Lets just hope Annie still has a spot for me :o.
Anyway, to continue, I am currently in the process of contacting my yoga teacher and keeping my fingers crossed that she still has a space for me =S. I have continued my mostly raw lifestyle. That hasn't changed, nor will it change. But because my issues in my mind are still not settled, my body suffers the same. I thought about returning to kickboxing. But, as usual, my wonderful soulmate pokes me and says "You loved yoga, why not go back?"
He's so wonderful....how could i have left yoga behind?
Lets just hope Annie still has a spot for me :o.
Monday, 3 August 2009
Fruitarianism!
Right, so I'm still around! I just don't blog that much =b. I should!
I'm still going strong, raw vegan wise. I've dropped almost all the kilos that I put back on from my straying off this lifestyle. Now with the purchase of a new bike, that should be more physical activity I'll be taking up....along with my contribution to preventing pollution.
My little scooter decided to break down this morning and I really don't want to use money to fix it. Instead, I bought a bike. I figure that my purchase was a wise one! Let's hope :)
Otherwise, I'm 100% fruitarian...and I brought my fiancee along for the ride! He saw my improvements over time and was getting curious on how this lifestyle will benefit him :). I'm tickled to pieces that hes decided to go this way. Today is his day one, so lets see if he sticks to it =b.
I'm still going strong, raw vegan wise. I've dropped almost all the kilos that I put back on from my straying off this lifestyle. Now with the purchase of a new bike, that should be more physical activity I'll be taking up....along with my contribution to preventing pollution.
My little scooter decided to break down this morning and I really don't want to use money to fix it. Instead, I bought a bike. I figure that my purchase was a wise one! Let's hope :)
Otherwise, I'm 100% fruitarian...and I brought my fiancee along for the ride! He saw my improvements over time and was getting curious on how this lifestyle will benefit him :). I'm tickled to pieces that hes decided to go this way. Today is his day one, so lets see if he sticks to it =b.
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