Water Fast - Day 3 and onward

The end of day 2 and all the way through day 3, I had become so completely sick from the detoxing, it was not funny at all. My eyes had sunk in, my movements were slow and weak, the headache returned, I began having the shakes and nausua. But then, stuff from my stomach started to come up and I couldn't work. My client was concerned, ofc. As she should have been, but I assured her that I was sick, but it was not contagious.

(Fasting should really always be done for yourself and there is no need for anyone else to know.)

But, because of the situation, my soulmate also grew concerned. After work, he went by and bought loads of vegetables to put into a salad and begged me to eat. And, I did. The end of day 3, I broke my fast with a salad and some yellow corn. I can't let him worry, really and I was truely quite sick from all of the toxins.

And he said that three days on an all water fast was quite impressive and a nice starter to future fastings. The reason why I hadn't posted before now was not because I was ashamed (as that has been the reason for me in the pasts), but because I was weak.

The day after the fast break, my energy levels were absolutely through the roof! I woke up smiling and don't believe I stopped smiling throughout the entire day. I could sense and feel the fast did have quite a wonderful effect on me, even though I was incredibly sick just the day before.

I especially felt 'clean' and fresher in my face area and all around my head. I am not sure what that means, but it was a very nice experience.

That day (would have been day 4 of the fast) was also my first day back into yoga class! That was also awesome! During the class, we were told to meditate on a dream that we want to (and with some effort) acquire. I focused on having a healthy and beautiful body. After a few minutes of meditation and focusing on this 'dream', suddenly something inside of me said 'Do not drink anymore wine.'

I was so shocked that that was said. I didn't say it, I wasn't even thinking about wine. But it is true, I drink, at least, two bottles of wine a day in the weekends. So 3-4 bottles from Friday evening to Sunday. I have wanted to give up alcohol for quite a while, but my inner addict forces me back to it.

And, last night was friday, and there was a bottle of wine left over from last weekend sitting in the kitchen. My inner addict won again and I drank it. While in the course of drinking this cursed drink, my guilt was non-existant and my mind was not focusing on what I had just done.

I had just betrayed my body of what it had, just the day before, asked of me. To stop drinking it.

And, after going to bed, my body got revenge through one nightmare after another. First, me trying desparately to saved an old man from drowning. He was coughing so hard, his ribs were breaking beneath my arms (as I was holding him). Than I dreamt that me and a group of others my age were taken to the woods to camp and there was a daschund with as. A sweet little tan female. One girl tapped my shoulder and said 'watch this.' And she used her mind to ask the dog to bite the overbearing guide that was with us (none of us liked him because he was so mean.). Reluctantly, the little dog nipped as his finger then began licking it as if to say she were sorry.

THen the guide picked up the dog and pointed a handgun to the dogs head screaming 'I'm going to kill her!"

I screamed out no, grabbed the gun and pointed it at him, demanding he let the dog free. He did, then charged me and I shot him in the shoulder/arm....but the bullet hit the artery. But that didn't matter, he was still coming after me, over took me and took the gun and pointed it at my head.

After that, I woke up, layed in bed....and finally got up to do some morning yoga. Swearing, from this day onward that I will not betray my body with such a simple requests again.

No more drinking, it only hurts me. I have to replace my inner addicts wants with something else. I am hoping that the replacement will be yoga.

So I did 3 days of water fasting and, so far, 3 days of daily yoga. I recall that I never put a limit to how many days I was going to give myself on the water fasting, so I didn't fail....nor did I succeed in cleansing. But its a start.

I do plan on fasting again. Next fast will be a juice fast....and I will plan another water fast in the future. Preferably during vacation times =b.

I will continue to post on my blog though! Yoga will be a daily thing for me now (or at least I hope it to be), as well as listening to my body and feeding it what it really wants.